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I have this weird urge to be fully realized in a sense, so i have no more doubt about who i am or who I'm supposed to be in the grand scheme of things. Thinking once I figure that out, I can get to work on more important things.

It's late and I had to get this out of my head and if you don't like it then fuck you.

http://worldislame.wordpress.com/2008/11/07/why-i-hate-suburbia/

Not sure if want o.O;

Edward James Fish
August 2006 - July 20 2008

Is it good to regret never being part of some kind of "underground" subculture when i was a teenager?
This is what i get for watching Hackers at 11:30 at night. I know hacking doesn't really work like that, and it's more solitary nerds in their bedrooms than super cool punks out on adventures, but you get where I'm coming from. I guess I've just always wanted to be a part of something. Especially something that "sticks it to the man".

If you've known me for any significant amount of time, you'd know that I'm constantly on this quest to find myself. Why can't I just find a path and stick to it and be happy? Why can't I just find something and say "this is what I'm gonna devote my life to and everything is gonna be awesome from this day on"?

If you've seen me around, please let me know where I am. I miss me very much and would like to be reunited with myself.

Just saw Wanted, so I'm going to try and review it while it's fresh in my mind.

First, wanted tells the story of Wesley Gibson (James McAvoy): your average 20-something cubicle slave living a perfectly average insignificant life until one night, an assassin named Fox (Angelina Jolie) shows up and tells him that his estranged father was part of a league of assassins known as The Fraternity, which is run by a man named Sloan (Morgan Freeman). Now, Wesley has to learn his late father's trade and take out the man who took his father out....ridiculous action ensues.

My verdict: it was decent. The movie took a few liberties with physics (such as curving a bullet's trajectory in order to hit your target around corners and stopping your opponent's bullet in mid-air by hitting it with one of your own), but that is not always a bad thing. For the most part, this movie wouldn't really be that interesting without it. Now that I think about it, the movie was just kind of an excuse to show a bunch of "mind bending" Matrix-esque effects. Of course, this is my opinion of the film while knowing nothing of the original work, a graphic novel (comic book for grown-ups) of the same name.

I Agree :D

If, you're too lazy to watch the video, Peelander Blue, drummer for the band Peelander-Z, is leaving the band. Apparently, his father, Peelander King, is retiring, so Blue has to go back to Planet Peelander and take the crown. He will be missed.

I seem to repeat myself a lot when it comes to my hang-ups, but only cause I'm looking for a way to fix it and have it not be an issue anymore. And I don't know how to fix it myself, so I figure I'll ask everyone until I find someone who does know. yet to find that person though.

Dear world, do me a favor and don't buy anything ever. when you do it makes register slaves like me have to do stuff

one of my requirements for the ultimate pay by the hour joe job would be one where I'm allowed to sit down and kind of goof off until there is a task that needs to be done, then once the task is done, I can go back to goofing off, also STANDING FOR HOURS ON END IS NOT MY IDEA OF FUN. and yes I know lots of people have it just as bad or worse, don't really care.

Hm, I came up with an idea, I want anyone who dares to try and convert me into a liberal, BUT you can't say anything negative about the other side, and you can only use logical and reasonable arguments.

I think I need to start trying to draw again, start me up a webcomic and get internet famous, but....i can't do something just to get famous, that's the wrong reason to do anything, but I don't just naturally gravitate to doing awesome creative things. when people pick up drawing or an instrument or something, do they have to force themselves to keep going until they're good enough that it just comes natural? or is it just kinna natural from the get go and all you ever want to do is develop your skill cause it all just clicks together?

OK, so I'm hung up on "waaaa there's nothing I'm good at that really defines me, I have no super awesome skill" and I know I've been over this one a million times and it's annoyed many a person but ya know what? Last time I checked, no one was forcing you to read this.
Now that that is out of the way, I guess I just always felt like skill should feel kind of natural is a sense when developing it. Like, take learning a musical instrument for instance, you pick it up for the first time, its the most awkward thing it the world. Now I'm not saying Eddie Van Halen was shredding from day one, he had to practice his ass off. But I always thought you weren't supposed to mind the practice. and that you never really got frustrated cause for some reason it felt natural and everything just sort of clicked into place.
I guess it's really more of the determination thing than figuring out what types of skills you're geared for. And for some reason, I'm not really determined, I'm not really motivated. It seems like the thing I excel at is analyzing myself...and that's not really all that awesome. Maybe I should just quit IRC and most internet until I get so bored that I say "ya know what, I'm gonna go do and have that skill be my talent."
I'm also kind of eternally discouraged. I think "well, what if I try this, and buy into it and everything, but then I find out it's not my thing, there goes a bunch of wasted time, effort, and money."

That's all I really got for tonight, advice, hate mail, whatever you got is welcome. Tune in next time when I'll try and spackle over my character flaws.

I want one

Will you donate to my organization? We want to Keep Waiting Room Magazines Old. Every day, people in doctors offices and hair salons around the world are reading current and up to date magazines, while while the old ones are merely thrown aside or left on the coffee table...forgotten. Please, think of the magazines.

everyone knows I get moody and emo when I haven't eaten, something to do with my blood-sugar levels. I wish I wasn't dependent on food for my emotional stability.

People who think they are superior because they hate everything and they're grumpy all the time annoy the crap out of me, And don't claim that you're being "realistic." realism does not mean depressing and grumpy. big shock: the world doesn't have to be such a terrible place, a lot of it can be turned around with a change of attitude.